One Day You Realized


So that one day you realized that what you wanted had already happened, and long ago in the dwelling place in which you lived before you began, and that every step along the way, you carried the heart and the mind and the promise, that first set you off then drew you on, and that: you were marvelous in your simple wish to find a way than the gilded roofs of any destination you could reach:

From Santiago. David Whyte

A friend said to me the other day that what was emerging for him right now, he realized, was what he’d always wanted to do when he was in his twenties. So about twenty years ago.

I can’t remember as far back as “what do you want to do when you grow up” but I too am excited that what is emerging for me right now is a culmination of all the work and parts of a vision I have had, also about twenty years ago, and maybe even before I was born.
Watch this space for more details.


What if a diviner or seer or tarot card reader told you had a family that lived in the sea, or were part of a tribe you had not yet discovered in deep Africa or the jungles of the Amazon, even though you born to French parents and were raised in London ? What if your dreams showed you people and places and some years later you felt called to take journeys and you met those people or visited those places, and remembered, that you were once there and the people felt like family.


What if our lives were simply a journey to become more of who we were supposed to be? And in that becoming we incorporated past lives and the meeting along the way of those who we had met and shared time with before, opportunities for us to reconcile, whatever happened then. What if our life is an invitation to realize unfulfilled dreams, mend past life broken relationships, tie up unfinished business from a long time ago, forgive what then seemed unforgiveable, and share a past steeped in a deep connection to the natural world, all species and all worlds and each other.

What if we followed through on a purposefull or purposeless life. What if our illness, life traumas and tribulations, major natural disasters were all ways to help us to wake up to finding a way, when sometimes the gilded roofs drew us away from any destination we thought we could reach.

How then will we live?


The Dagara people of Burkina Faso believe that we came here with medicine , ingrained in our bones, our very own signature even before we were born. Another way to look at it, our genuis. They gave a child a name, seen before it was born, which incorporates the purpose of the child. If it’s all already in us, if we already know, then really all we are doing here is re- remembering,

how then can we live?

We often struggle along the way to become our true selves. We begin to attach, project, judge, cling, over work, over give and obsess, all acts borne out of fear, low self worth, loniliness. This deepens the disconnection to our true self. Finally unable to be with ourselves we lose our way home. What if we were to pull back all of those experiences negative or positive and allow it to dissapate, crumble, and return to great spirit, maybe then we are the creator, not THE one but our own visioner, creator. Maybe this will bring us   more joy, curiosity, surprise, mystery and enchantement.

Some of us are lucky enough to find teachers, mentors, guides, midwives and ancestors along the way. Some of us listen to the messages signs and symbols and follow them. Whatever way we chose, if we know that our destination is true self, authentic being, and our calling is to become more of who we came here to be, and return to oneness, how do we realize that we already carry a promise, the first agreement to ourselves.

Botswana with Naba Bushmen woman digging for roots and medicine

Nature and the animals teaches us about change, transform, life, death and rebirth, if we disconnect from her too, we forget our true nature. The bones of the earth, millions of years old, rocks and mountains teaches us to re-remember what we came here to do, the earth welcomes us home, where we belong, and fire helps us to remember our life force, our passion. Water teaches us to dive deeper into the old world, to remember our wildness, our fluidity, our clarity, our origin.
I realized that I have often in my lives, had to leave home to find home, and that my work which is changing to be the work I had imagined I would do, is also to become more of who I am, and to invite others to do the same.

How then must I live?


Recently I read an article that spoke about a study by Dr Thomas Gilovich, a psychology professor at Cornel University. “Spending” on experience rather than things, in the pursuit of happiness was suggested. Material objects, it said, eventually diminishes over time, whereas experiences are an ingrained part of our identity. Shared experiences connect us more than shared consumption. for info on community ventures,  shared experiences and sacred journeys together. We will be sharing our experiences with the Khomani San Bushmen, in the August 2015 journey.

E.E Cummings says this: To be nobody but yourself- in a world that is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else-means to fight the hardest battle which any human can fight; and never stop fighting


May all worlds bless and protect you always. Mbali, Bavulele, Vusamathongo, 


4 thoughts on “One Day You Realized

  1. Blessings Mbali. It is always good to receive your beautiful medicine and inspiration. Good journeying to all. xx

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